Today, February
1st, is a very important day for me. Two years ago is the day I had
my first apt with my current therapist, and the day I finally began to get
serious about recovery. After having suffered from an eating disorder for over
four years and having been in and out of other therapists and nutritionists to
not much avail, I remember being absolutely terrified, and feeling not at all
ready or able to take the steps needed to finally recover.
These past two years have been an
extremely long journey, full of many ups and down, relapses and triumphs. The
one constant though is that I have never given up on my goal of becoming fully
recovered and free of this disorder. Looking back, I can hardly even recognize
the girl I was two years ago. She was so weak, broken, and beaten down by her
eating disorder that she did not know how to fight anymore. She hardly had the
will. At my first apt I was hardly able to speak for myself, or articulate how
I was feeling or what I wanted or needed. Now, after hundreds of sessions, time
spent in an amazing treatment center, and countless self-reflection and hours
of hard work, I have learned so much about myself and what I deserve and want
out of life. I am well on the road to finally being recovered from this
disorder, and being able to help people in the same position that I was two
years ago.
Two years later, the person I am now
is strong, Independent, and believes in herself and her recovery more than she
ever thought possible. I know I am not recovered yet, and I still have a long
way to go, but I am nowhere near where I used to be, and I am so proud of the
work I’ve done and the woman I am becoming. There was a time when I honestly
never thought I would get here, yet here I am, in Boston, a city which I love
at a school I love, working everyday to live life to the fullest and recover
and grow more and more every day.
So much has changed in only two
years. Since February 1st 2013, My life and myself are almost
unrecognizable. I am so excited to see what the next two years bring, and how
much I am able to grow and change and love and live life to the fullest. Over
these past two years I have grown excited again for life and for the future,
and I cant wait to see what it will bring.
Today I am so
grateful for recovery, and for al the amazing opportunities and people it has
brought into my life over the past two years. I am so thankful for the time and
life it has given me, and all it has allowed me to live and experience and
enjoy and love. Thanks to taking that first step two years ago, my life has
been brighter and had more potential than I could ever imagine. I am so so
grateful and proud.
Thanks for
reading!
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